journal

#027

#027

Currently in an eternal honeymoon phase with Self.

#026

Don't forget that being like water means knowing when to be solid.

#025

When your back is against the wall, become the wall.

#024

You can’t choose who you love, but you can choose who makes you happy.

#023

Ignorance is intentional when you have privilege.

#022

I don’t respond well to tears. Growing up that was a privilege we couldn’t afford.

#021

Do you ever feel like the overwhelming amazing or unfortunate experiences you’re having in your life are so surreal that it feels scripted?

#020

Yo, you ever feel like selfishly removing your existence and memory of yourself from the world, just to watch society go on and remind you that you ain’t shit? Ironically, these thoughts have speared headed me into systematic “success”, but also has dented the relationship I have with myself, thus with others I care(ed) about.

#019

The sustainability world praises areas like Denmark and Sweden for being environmentally progressive, but is it because there’s no culture to clash with in their silhouetted society?

#018

Anybody with enough education will tell you academia is shit, well at least in American because that where I have my privilege to study. I think education is key whether from google, the streets, or from a traditional system. What I discourage is second guessing your aspirations due to the conceptual frameworks that we have been conditioned to; to follow a robotic labor chain to supplement an unjust globalization focused society.

#017

When slave owners raped male slaves it was used to show dominance and superiority in a plan to oppress across generations. I think since then the different forms of sexuality, especially in the Black male community have been highly scrutinized, thus violently punished. However, as ancient and indigenous knowledge become pop culture, I think the weaponization of sexuality in its "traditional" form is starting to dismantle. Regardless of the lock-and-key dogma of the sexes and the survive and reproduce framework of living organisms, humanity is far more complex then these elementary constructs in every other system. The irony is that in ancient times the LGBTQIA community was highly praised and gender/sexuality in society was highly fluid.

#016

You can't push "greater good" initiatives with a conceptual framework rooted in greed.

#015

That point when you're in a relationship that both of you are unhappy and feel it's toxic, but both of you are too stubborn and clingy to let go, thus forming more sadness and pique.

This is that reminder to let go if you want their happiness and yours.

#014

At what point does exercising a complex vocabulary and critical thinking starts to sway away from a blinded-privilege to contributing to oppression?

#013

I'm not socially awkward, I just dont like being around people and talking about bullshit. Who's really the weird one?

#012

I've never used methamphetamine, but I bet it resembles the feelings right after a needed cry, like a "fucking hard I can’t breathe sobbing grieving" cry. And when you sit and reflect after you’re done crying it’s like that euphoric feeling after throwing up.

Man, I really needed to cry.

#011

The worse kind of manipulative people are the ones who don't know they are manipulative...or do they actually know, but they are so narcissistic they defend it with "ignorance"?

#010

I think this era of time is heavily based on being “woke” or being politically correct even if that means being absolutely wrong.

#009

I feel like masturbation heightens confidence that unfortunately leads to the oppression of woman becuase woman have been restricted to explore their sexual physiological feelings i.e. confidence.

Well, if that’s true, why the hell am I still blocking my self to “build” my confidence?

#008

How do you know when the relationship is over? Is it when that questions spawns everyday?

#007

If you allow yourself to be disrespected why would people respect you?

#006

You are only as sick as your secrets.

#005

This is a reminder that TV mimics real life, not the other way around. Live it to the fullest.

#004

Masculine figures, specifically men, have almost a natural tendency to suppress and then release, which is almost identical to the male orgasm - a build up of tension causing an uncontrolled outburst or ejaculation. I wonder once a male or masculine figure controls their organism they then to control their emotionless, thus regrettable outburst and actions.

#003

I appreciate the effort ______.

I think my living situation and what's been happening outside has hyper-focused me into work mode, which has positively granted me an outlet for my pain and anger, but part of me feels like that response is due to a numbness, a feeling that what's been going on has been normalized for me since I was a child and since then I pushed myself to keep going, thus I have to react in the same way to break free from it.

#002

Transgenerational memory via epigenetics involves information about an environment or stress that's passed down, resulting in offspring having high genetic variation and being more resilient in harsher conditions. I wonder if this is playing a role in the continued “success” of the black community despite us still being oppressed.

#001

In business, exploration is a state of always seeking, thus strategic growth. Fall in love with what might kill you next and treat your successes like a side-piece.

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